Week 10 WI results: 13st 13.75lb

I lost 1.5lb... it's actually weird because every other blog I've read lately mentioned that they all expected a gain this time round. I'm sure we all had good reasons to suspect it but surprisingly none of us actually gained - even more surprisingly we all lost weight!

So, I'm now in the 13's, which I'm over the moon about. Not only that, but I'm now eating 22 points per day and I have officially lost 10% of my body weight since joining WWO!

I've been doing alright with my water pledge, but I need to get serious about something else which is sticking-to-my-points-allowance. And I mean it this time. No more faffing around with eating nothing or eating too much. I need to really focus on this because firstly, it's not healthy to over eat or starve myself, but secondly (and just as important as my first point) it's causing major havoc with my mental self. After my pizza fiasco, I just felt completely hopeless and I don't want food to do that to me; in fact, I don't want anything to do that to me and that's including myself for putting food in my mouth in the first place! So, my pledge is that I'm going to eat 22 points per day unless I can justify honestly why I've underspent/overspent my points (i.e. saving points and using saved points, illness, etc). And this time, I'm even going to try and eat my 22 points before WI... ooh, scary! I'm going to carry on trying to drink 1.5L a day as well - though I shockingly didn't even do 1L today (unless you count the two coffees I drank).

I'm also trying to be really sensible with my food too. I am making wiser food choices whilst thinking about my points these days and my boyfriend and I have decided to lay off the microwaveable meals in exchange for fresher ingredients and meals we can prepare. That's why recently I've been eating ham salad with a bit of bread during lunch time at work. I'm going to give myself a little more variety next week, though.

09/07/09: Food

Breakfast
1 instant coffee (with skimmed milk) - 0.5pt
1 bag of Kellogg's mini breaks (original) - 1.5pts

Lunch
Baby leaf salad with dressing - 1pt
Ham - 1.5pts
Seeded roll - 4pts

Snack
1 small Starbucks skinny latte - 1.5pts
Watermelon - 2pts
500ml Irn Bru - 3pts

Dinner
70g Fruit n Fibre - 4pts
1/4 pint skimmed milk - 0.5pts

TOTAL: 19.5/23pts

08/07/09: Food

Breakfast
1 sesame roll - 2.5pts
1 latte - 1pt

Snack
pineapple - 1pt
2 biscuits - 2.5pts

Lunch
Salad bar (new potatoes, cucumber, lettuce, tuna, red onions, lima beans) - 5pts
1 boiled egg - 1.5pts

Snack
1 large banana - 2pts
1 tube of Fruit Pastilles - 2.5pts

Dinner
80g dried pasta - 4pts
1tsp pesto - 0.5pt
small glass of white wine - 1pt

TOTAL: 23.5/23pts (+ 1.5 bonus pts for walking briskly)

Fluid: 1L Volvic water, 1 small latte

After yesterday's lapse, which I still hate myself for, I still managed to eat over my points today. Sure, it's only 0.5pt over unlike yesterday's 19, but I did think that I'd try hard to cut back today in the run up to Friday's WI. Hmm. I now do have a good reason to fear Friday.

07/07/09: Food & ultimately a binge

40g Fruit n Fibre - 2.5pts
1/4 pint semi skimmed milk - 1pt
WW yoghurt - 1pt
mutli seeded roll - 4pts
salad w/ dressing - 1pt
ham - 1.5pts
4 finger Kit Kats - 5pts
small latte - 1pt
6 slices of pizza - 25pts

Total: 42/23pts (+ 4 bonus pts for running)

I've been in a horrible mood since getting home and I was home alone so I caved in to some pizza. I feel so fucking stupid, it's not even worth any sympathy. I need a slap. I'm so angry with myself that I thought the only thing I deserve is to throw it all back up again but I knew that would be a scary road to travel down so I have this disgusting food bubbling away in my stomach. I want to cry and punch something. WHY DID I DO IT?!

Week 9, 1st Run

Time: 0500
Duration: 3min run + 2min walk x7 (35min)
Route: R Rd, W Ave, WE Lane, WE Gdns, H Rd, D Rd (C Ave on 2nd lap)
Weather: 15C - cloudy - cool breeze
Sleep: 7.5hrs

I was very conscious about my pace today, making sure I didn't burn out after the first 3 laps like last time. Fortunately, it wasn't so bad and I'm happy to report that I completed it even after Sunday's hiccup. I was focusing on my pace and breathing today whilst thinking about the 5K run in September. I'm still very nervous about it and was asking myself today if I can even run the whole thing or if I'll end up doing my walk/run. A big part of me wants to run the entire 3 miles but I'm going to be realistic and just train as much as I can in the next two months and see what happens!

06/07/09: Food

1 banana - 1.5pts
400g watermelon - 2pts
salad with dressing - 0.5pt
ham - 1.5pts
multi seeded roll - 4pts
1 Costa primo skinny latte - 0.5pt
noodles - 5pts

Total: 15/23pts (I physically can't eat a lot today because of my TOTM.)

Fluids: 1L Volvic water, 1 mug of green tea, 1 coffee

adidas Women's 5K Challenge

Last night, I signed myself up to the adidas Women's 5K Challenge on 6 September. I don't know what made me do it. I think it could be partly down to the fact that I felt lousy yesterday after my "run". I'm nervous but really excited at the same time. It definitely pulled me out of my slump yesterday and I have a goal to try and aim for. This has made me look forward to tomorrow's run, which was something I was dreading before. So, I got my mojo back and I'm less pissed off about yesterday. Hurrah! Two more weeks until my programme finishes and I'm going to try and train to do a 5K run. I bought a heart rate monitor to, well, monitor my heart rate and probably at the same time try to learn what a HRM should be used for! I have two months to get myself prepared for the 3 mile race and I'm really looking forward to it (though, yes I am still very nervous). :D